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11:21 a.m. ХSaturday, September 18, 2004Х
[ Music - So Tell Me by Heartsdales ]
[ Feeling - Positive xD ]

For the heck of it! xD Get it for a limited time only. O.O;

Kou Shibasaki - Mitsu

01. Fantasista
02. Ukigumo
03. Teruishi
04. Nemurenei Yoru wa Nemuranai Yume wo*
05. Inori
06. Omoide Dake Dewa Tsurasugiru
07. Shinai
08. Wasurenagusa
09. Boukyaku
10. Ikutsuka no Sora*
11. Fuyuzora
12. Tsuki no Shizuku*

I'm currently watching Good Luck! :D With Kou Shibasaki~ *_* It's an OK drama... xD I still can never understand why most girls drool over Takuya Kimura though. @_@;;

Oh yeah, I'd like to recommend a movie. :D Battle Royale. ^^ It's only... a bit bloody, but nothing even that extreme. o_o; It's real good though~

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8:33 p.m. ХFriday, September 17, 2004Х
[ Music - Tsuki no Shizuku by Kou Shibasaki ]
[ Feeling - Negative ]

This site definitely needs a new layout. -.-; I need something very simple. *_* *sighs*

Well, I guess I have lots of things to watch this weekend. ^^ Like Good Luck, Battle Royale I and II, Kamisama Mou Sukoshi Dake, Love Generation, Long Vacation, Great Teacher Onizuka, Heaven's Coins 3, Koukuu Kyoushi 2003, Virgin Road...

Anyone interested in japanese dramas? xD I'm bored.

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8:06 p.m. ХThursday, September 9, 2004Х
[ Music - S.O.S (korean version) by Shyne ]
[ Feeling - Lonely ]

School will always be boring. Nothing much to explain about first day except run here and there, and pray you'll get the good seats.

There's absolutely no damn point to even go on AIM and MSN I realize. I never even talk to anyone, so why in the world should I go on instant messengers anyway. .-.

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5:29 p.m. ХWednesday, September 8, 2004Х
[ Music - Akaku Moyuru Taiyo by NewS ]
[ Feeling - Angry ]

I wonder if I expect too much out of peoples. -_-; I mean, I try to get them into things just to bring some happiness into their life or whatever, send them things, etc. Maybe I guess I also expect some sort of happiness from them, too? -_-; Hn.

I DO try to continue conversations with peoples, but they seem to enjoy using my favorite words that kills convos. -_- Thus I quit IMing many peoples 'cause I'm so sick of it. I try to be sweet and 'nice' and friggin continue it, but really, peoples are idiots.

Sure, peoples IM me for help; ok I'll help them. Peoples IM me because their BLOODY friends aren't online; sure I'll try to talk to them. But really, I try and try and try but FUCKING BLOODY ALWAYS do they just kill it for me.

At times, I even put up away messages in hope that someone would respond with a simple, "What's wrong?" I sometimes want my friends to ask me that, but they just never do. So thus explains my mood. I'm so angry that it always feels like my friends just don't care at all.

Why should I be so caring and nice to peoples who aren't caring and nice to me? Pft.

Plug for Mieki. <3

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6:26 p.m. ХThursday, September 2, 2004Х
[ Music - S.O.S (eng ver) by Shyne ]
[ Feeling - Disappointed ]

It's bad. This whole month, I've been losing weight... thus making it worst since I'm underweight.

Sigh.

But I just can't eat. Lost of appetite. Plus I'm just feeling too discouraged by the fact everyone is excelling at Photoshop.

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5:40 p.m. ХThursday, September 2, 2004Х
[ Music - Blue Jean by GLAY ]
[ Feeling - Insecure ]

Ick... I still think this font (and color) doesn't match with this layout, sigh, oh well. And if you don't like depressing posts, then you most certainly must not read ahead. [ END warning ]

Mom just came back on Tuesday night from China and she actually got me the things I wanted. Some stationary (don't know why, I just love 'em), Hello Kitty things, new clothes [finally], and Jay Chou's "Qi Li Xiang" CD. <3 ...I know I should be feeling happy but that can only last so long before I revert back to being depressed. =_=

Now, you wonder, why am I depressed? Normally I am a optimistic person, really. Actually... all summer I've been depressed. == *grumbles* But if someone talks to me, it goes away but once that person logs off, it comes back again. Here... let me go make a list of why I'm depressed.

Х I got a bad GPA (less than 3.0) during Sophomore year, and it seriously didn't help my self-esteem when my own cousin laughed at me. LAUGHED.

Х I honestly have no one to talk to. I usually go online and can go the whole day without a single IM.

Х My own friend didn't bother to say farewell when she signed off. (She rarely goes on) And when she signed on again one day, she said she had to go and then... I asked after 5 minutes, "How come you're still on?" She said she was saying bye and signed off... yet again, without saying bye to me. That hurt.

Х I'm around idiots who enjoy saying "lol" to end conversations when I'm trying my damnedest best to continue it. It's not depressing... but it annoys me soo goddamn much, it's not funny anymore.

Х I'm constantly jealous that everyone practically has a "true" friend, save for me. My friends don't go online to greet me, they don't call me on the phone to invite me to places... while other peoples friends do so. Feels like my friends never care about me...

Х I don't feel loved at all. And it hurts damnit because I'm overly emotional, and I cry at that thought.

Х I'm ALWAYS ALWAYS feeling left behind by my friends. Why? They never fucking notice when I'm WAY behind them... they never look back and WAIT for me. Yes, some friends.

Peoples laugh at me. And no, I don't find it fucking funny I did terrible in 10th grade. No, I don't find it fucking funny that I'm always practically alone, with no one to talk to. No, I don't find it fucking funny that I'm down in the dumps feeling terrible/miserable/depressed.

This is why I hate peoples... fucking lousy useless bunch of idiotic shitheads walking around. I hope you all die and get stabbed in a friggin dark alley and bleed to death, and get raped along the way.

It's interesting how peoples find the lamest things amusing. Like me missing my target in gunbound and laugh. God, do I not have ONE encouraging supportive friend in this friggin world? ...Makes me want to hate others more now. Kill them, even.

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10:34 p.m. ХTuesday, August 31, 2004Х
[ Music - Kaerimichi by Kou Shibasaki ]
[ Feeling - happy yet depressed ]

Credit goes to Boyis for the image and Paint Shop Pro for the program that I'm currently using. xD

Yeess... after a extremely long hiatus, which I think started May 6, Glarie finally had some sort of motivation and finally opened it back. o_o; I don't know why, but after talking to Laura on MSN, I finally decided to work on a layout, and viola! ^^; Yes... long hiatus which means my weblog is practically dead which practically means no visitors. x_x;

Layout... I absolutely couldn't resist. xD All the girls are from the anime Bottled Fairy and when I came across them in Boyis, I just had to make a layout on them. :D! I think the girls' names are... Kururu, Sarara, Kororo... and um, forgot. @_@; xD Like?

._.; Yes, I'm aware the font color doesn't exactly match nor the font for that matter. x_X; But I'm stumped. I'm still trying to get over graphic blocks. ._.; *sigh* Anywho.

Welcome back, Significance! x] ...stupid chatterbox and self-erasing-entries...

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